|sry i havent updated in such a long time
||[Jun. 25th, 2006|09:04 pm]
Starving to Survive
|||||what music, my ipod is charging right now!||]|
it has been crazy! everything has fallen apart and i wasnt quite sure how to fix any of it. until now that is. i have moved back in with my mother temporarily. for some goodness awful reason that house gives me the security i need to restrict and not feel scared of being caught. maybe it is because i restricted for so long in that house. that i did it so easily and no one said anything to me. im honestly not sure. but i know that by becoming a recluse there i can establish the proper footing for dieting again. i long for the feeling of complete control over myself. the satisfaction i get when i have acomplished my goal weight. this is another start to more sucess, a thinner me.