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new. [Aug. 29th, 2006|09:45 pm]
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[mood |determined]
[music |against all odds - the postal service]

Name: Michelle.
Age: Fourteen.
Location: Clinton Twp. Michigan.
What ED do you have: Mia / ana.
How long: not long/
Strait/Bi/Gay: Straight
Status: Single
Favorite Bands: Party monster. Death Cab. Action Action.
Reading?: I read a lot
Sex?: virgin.
Drugs?: virgin.
Smoking?: second hand smoker.
*Current 135
*Heighest 140 (three or so days ago)
*Lowest 130.  
*Short term goal 120
*Long term goal 110
Extra: (like, can you lick your elbow?) Nope.

Does anyone have any purging tips? 
Or any tips to keep a high metabolism?

I heard green tea and cold showers work. 
I usually only purge in the shower to cover up the noise.
Plus it's a lot less suspicious.

Okay. I just want to say. I have been struggling with my weight since I was about 11ish. I've been 130 for the past three years. Suddenly this year (when i became extremely worried about my weight) I gained ten pounds.
I'm not sure if it's because being a vegetarian I wasn't eating enough, so I began to binge.
Plus I used to rollerblade every single day.
I don't want to be 130. But I would rather be that then 135.
I am never happy with my weight. I feel like a fat cow all the time.
As soon as the scale hit 140. I cried my eyes out. I was so depressed.
I was afraid to eat. I didn't want to eat.

I can keep this under control. All I need is a plan.
I want to keep my calorie consumption under 1000.
Which is a lot. But I'm kind of new at ana. 
I usually just throw up If I feel I ate too much, but I never counted my calories.
I know I know. 

Also. I don't want to pass out or anything while not eating.
Any tips?

If anyone has any tips on what to eat a day to keep it under 1,000 calories
that would help.

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hey everyone [Aug. 5th, 2006|04:42 am]
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[mood |crazycrazy]

still feeling like i havent lost any weight. im in a rut, a platue. any suggestions?
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Survey [Jun. 30th, 2006|03:50 pm]
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Name: Staysail
Age: 22
What ED do you have: Ana
How long: 5 years, then was forced into treatment and gained weight over the last 2 years, now I'm fat and miserable and Ana has secretly been introducing herself into my life again.
Strait/Bi/Gay: Straight
Status: Single
Favorite Bands: Kiss, Neil Diamond, Janis Joplin, Imogen Heap, Gravy Train, Clap Your Hands Say Yeah
Reading?: Normal Girl - Molly Jong Fast
Sex?: Yes, but I'm too fat for that right now.
Drugs?: Coke, Marijuana, E.
Smoking?: Yes
*Current: 197 lbs
*Heighest: 221 lbs
*Lowest: 98 lbs
*Short term goal: 170 lbs
*Long term goal: 100 lbs

I'm new. To this community and Livejournal. I'm slipping into Ana again and I want some support to make her stay. I'm tired of this and what treatment has done to me. Obviously everyone that I know knows my past and so whenever I say I'm not hungry or decline food, they judge that. I think they're starting to figure it out. I need some good lies and ways to stop their questioning. Help me.
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ive been better [Jun. 29th, 2006|03:50 pm]
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[mood |crappycrappy]

i ate a bad food so i cutt myself, its been a struggle so far. that's all i really have to say
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sry i havent updated in such a long time [Jun. 25th, 2006|09:04 pm]
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[mood |productive]
[music |what music, my ipod is charging right now!]

it has been crazy! everything has fallen apart and i wasnt quite sure how to fix any of it. until now that is. i have moved back in with my mother temporarily. for some goodness awful reason that house gives me the security i need to restrict and not feel scared of being caught. maybe it is because i restricted for so long in that house. that i did it so easily and no one said anything to me. im honestly not sure. but i know that by becoming a recluse there i can establish the proper footing for dieting again. i long for the feeling of complete control over myself. the satisfaction i get when i have acomplished my goal weight. this is another start to more sucess, a thinner me.
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(no subject) [May. 9th, 2006|08:01 am]
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oh, & add me!
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(no subject) [May. 6th, 2006|06:51 am]
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join x_emo_anaz_x!!!
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(no subject) [May. 6th, 2006|01:31 am]
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hey girlies!! well i took everyones advice and drank actual water and not v8 splash and it worked i think!!! i realized that I LOVE WATER!!! so now i'm drinking TONS OF WATER, like 140oz a day, is that bad?

and i also cut back and i'm only eating foods that have NO SODIUM AT ALL, like broccoli and carrots and apples and such. i hope it works i dont want any nasty sodium cluttering up my body!! do you think thats bad as well? it could be but i dont care at all! i want to be skinny so bad!

i'm 5'1 and my goal weight is mk's goal weight - 88 pounds. i'm trying to get there by the end of may, right now i'm 109lbs. do you girls think thats possible?

add me! i'll add you back!!!
think thin and stay strong!
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(no subject) [May. 4th, 2006|05:20 am]
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do you guys think that drinking 64oz of diet v8 splash is the same as drinking 64 oz water?

& does salt have calories? i think sometimes when i eat a lot of salt, i gain weight. why?

think thin!
ps- you can add me if you want, i can always use more eljay friends!!
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